Blog 2: I am Bad – Today I hurt her

Blog 2: April 15, 2018, today, maybe this day was probably the worst day of my life. Today I hurt her (My Love my LIFE) a lot. I broked her. I always told her that I will take care of you and fulfill all your wishes. But today, when she really needs me and because of my anger, I turned her down and for that reasons, she have no other options too.

15 अप्रैल, 2018, आज, शायद यह दिन शायद मेरे जीवन का सबसे खराब दिन था। आज मैं उसे (My Love My LIFE) बहुत दुःख दिया है। मैंने उसे हमेशा कहा कि मैं तुम्हारी देखभाल करूँगा और तुम्हारी सभी इच्छाओं को पूरा करूँगा। लेकिन आज, जब उसे वास्तव में मेरी आवश्यकता थी और मेरे क्रोध के कारण, मैंने उसे ठुकरा दिया और मेरे कारण भी, अब उसके पास अन्य कोई विकल्प नहीं है।

Read Also: My First Blog Post – It’s all about me

After all the incidents, when I came back home and think about all the incidents that happened today, today was probably angrier and this anger ended everything. After all the debate, when I finally saw her, she probably had to speak a lot, but his silence broke me.

सभी घटनाओं के बाद, जब मैं घर वापस आया और आज हुई सभी घटनाओं के बारे मे सोचा तो मुझे लगा आज शायद ज्यादा गुस्से में था और इस क्रोध ने सब कुछ समाप्त कर दिया। सब वाद विवाद के बाद मैंने जब उसको आखिर मैं देखा, उसको शायद बहुत कुछ बोलना था मगर उसकी ख़ामोशी ने मुझे तोड़ दिया।

So far everyone told me that, I have no feelings. I am rigid and tough, all advised me to change myself but I ignored all others. But today I also felt that I was a little tired. I was not like this since childhood, I do not know when I changed so much. I kept thinking this from the evening, my whole life was like a flashback in front of me.

अब तक सभी ने मुझसे कहा था कि मुझे कोई भावना नहीं है मैं कठोर और कठिन हूं, सभी ने मुझे खुद को बदलने की सलाह दी, लेकिन मैंने सभी दूसरों को नजरअंदाज कर दिया। लेकिन आज मुझे यह भी लगा कि मैं थोड़ा थका हुआ था। बचपन से मैं ऐसा नहीं था, मुझे नहीं पता कब मैं इतना बदल गया। मैं शाम से यही सोचता रहा, मेरा पूरा जीवन मेरे सामने एक फ्लैश बैक जैसा था। 

Before today, I have never care what others think about me, but today I thought that people who think and tell me if I had already worked on that, then what happened today is probably never. I need to change myself.

आज से पहले मैंने कभी नहीं सोचा की लोग मेरे बारे मैं क्या बोलते है क्या सोचते है , मगर आज लगा शायद लोग जो सोचते है और मुझे बताते हैं अगर मैं उसको पहले से ठीक कर लेता तो आज जो हुआ शायद वह कभी ना होता। मुझे खुद को बदलने की ज़रुरत है।

Through this blog, I will try to write all the events of my life. Maybe I can get an answer that when I became like this. Thanks for reading my Blog 2.

इस ब्लॉग के माध्यम से, मैं अपने जीवन की सभी घटनाओं को लिखने की कोशिश करूंगा। शायद मुझे जवाब मिल जाए कि मैं कब ऐसा बन गया।

- Related Articles -
Pardeep Patelhttps://pardeeppatel.com/
Hi!, I am Pardeep Patel, an Indian passport holder. I completed my M-Tech (Computer Science) in 2016. I love to travel, eat different foods from various cuisines, experience different cultures, make new friends and meet other.

Latest Articles

Into the Heart of Kailash Manasarovar: A Journey of Devotion

Nestled amidst the towering peaks of the Himalayas lies...

Journey to the Five Kailash Peaks – Discovering the Essence of Shiva Bhakti in the Himalayas

Embark on a spiritual odyssey to the heart of...

A Week in Kuwait: Unraveling the Charms of the Middle East’s Hidden Gem

Embark on an extraordinary journey as we delve into...

Global Vegetarian: A Language Guide to Ordering Veg Food Abroad

Welcome to "Global Vegetarian," your ultimate language guide to...

Rose Festival 2024 – Experience the Vibrancy of Chandigarh

Embrace the vibrant colors and fragrances of spring as...

Planning a Visit to Kartarpur Corridor: Everything You Need to Know

Introduction: In February 2024, I had the profound opportunity to...

Related Articles

Into the Heart of Kailash Manasarovar: A Journey of Devotion

Nestled amidst the towering peaks of the Himalayas lies Kailash Manasarovar, a place of profound spiritual significance revered by millions around the world. In...

Journey to the Five Kailash Peaks – Discovering the Essence of Shiva Bhakti in the Himalayas

Embark on a spiritual odyssey to the heart of the Himalayas, where the ethereal peaks of the "Five Kailash Peaks" stand as towering sentinels...

A Week in Kuwait: Unraveling the Charms of the Middle East’s Hidden Gem

Embark on an extraordinary journey as we delve into "A Week in Kuwait," unravelling the myriad charms of this hidden gem in the heart...